Here is your *WARNING* that this is kind of a depressing post. I don't really think I've posted anything about me yet, just mostly the kiddos. Notice how there aren't any picture of me on this site either? Ugh! Well, it's because I'm fat. Yes, I'm feeling super super super fat lately. I don't want to be fat so I think if I post about it then I'll have to really REALLY start working out and dieting because I'll have to report my status. Right?! I'm hoping this helps me. Mostly because I've just been feeling really depressed about it. When I was younger, I was super athletic and into every sport I had time for. From ages 13-18 I was part of the Junior Olympic Development Luge Team and competed on a Junior Olympic level (the athletic peak for Lugers is in your 20's-30's). I've got 11 medals and a gnarly scar to prove my awesomeness. Well, that was then. Back then, I was in FANTASTIC shape, only at that time, I thought I was fat. Man, I wish I could go back to those days. I'm not so concerned about how much I weigh, but I just want to fit into a certain size of clothing. Are you with me ladies?! At any rate, my favorite size was 4-6. I'm short, so this is PERFECT for me. I was this size when Chris and I started dating and then by the time we got married, I was a size 8-10. Then, as time progressed and I started working at a job that had a cafeteria in the building (yes, I'm going to try and blame it on something other than laziness) I got bigger and bigger.When I look at myself in the mirror, I don't even recognize the person staring back at me. Actually, I'm really disgusted at what's there and I feel bad that Chris has to look at it. After I had Cam, I dropped 11 lbs, WHICH WAS SO RAD and then breastfeeding helped me drop another 10. Now that I've stopped breastfeeding, the weight is slowly coming back on. I hardly ever step on a scale because I hate the numbers that blare back at me. Geez, sorry this is kind of depressing, but this is really how I feel. Anyway, I'm really motivated to lose TONS of weight and be back to my athletic self. My only problem right now is that I have to have knee surgery (yet to be scheduled), so things like lunges and running are out (for now). I'm all for going on a long walk, hike, or doing ANYTHING SERIOUSLY! I'd prefer to lose weight the healthy way, but I just feel like my body is really working against me.
So, I need everyone's (Chelsea, you look fantastic in your posts from Canada) advice, diet tips, exercising regimes etc. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me! If the trick to losing weight is to ONLY eat yogurt and carrots, I'll do it. I just hate the *me* right now.
My apologies if you've seen me lately because I am just f a t.... And I'm not pregnant so I have nothing to blame it on.
(ps. I know that picture up there is kind of odd, but it's the only one I could find that really reflected my favorite *size*...)
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oh Jane, i am so sorry you feel this way! I know exactly how you feel!! I am feeling expecially fat these days, and there is nothing I can do about it! :( But that's another story! I just wanted to tell you that I had good luck before with calorieking.com. I tried weight watchers, and south beach diet in the past as well. Anyways, I really like calorie king because of all their online tools. You count calories, but they make it easy because you can track it all right on the site. And then you can put in your exercise you did and it gives you those extra calories. Anyways, it's really cool, you should check it out!! I plan to do that again once these boys are here!! Anyways, good luck...I think you're great! :)
Jane, I totally know how you feel. Something that worked for me was cutting out all white stuff. Instead of buying white bread, we only buy WHOLE GRAIN bread. We also only buy brown rice instead of white rice (and I think Uncle Ben's is the best). I don't buy any chips or junk food, I don't even buy fruit snacks for Stella. We went through the fridge and threw out all unhealthy food. I started eating Oatmeal for breakfast with splenda and cinnamon instead of sugar and I eat a lot of whole grain cereal. When I get the munchies, I will eat a bowl of whole grain cereal (like Life, or Cherio's, or Honey bunches of oats) and a string cheese. We bought a bunch of fresh fruits and veggies and I cut up all the veggies and put them in the fridge and I will grab a handful of them every once in a while. Anyway, those simple changes really helped me. I can't keep any junk food in the house. We don't buy chips, candy, or anything like that. I also quit drinking regular soda and I just drink water and diet coke and fresca. Whenever I have a sweet tooth, I grab a diet coke. (I know diet coke isn't good for you, but I don't care.) As for exercising, I go on walks a lot and I try to carry Wes in the snuggli becasue then I am carrying an extra 16 lb and that helps me burn extra calories, but also, if your knee is bad, try the eliptical at the gym becasue it is easy on joints, and if that won't work, just ride the stationary bike and lift some weights. I also have one of those big exercise balls that I use to do crunches and push ups and stuff. Yoga is also great, I have a couple Rodney Yee Yoga dvd's and I use them all the time and they are great. Anyway, you are not alone, I have lost 50 lb since December (granted, 20 of that was a baby and amniotic fluid), but I haven't made huge changes, I just replaced the stuff I normally eat with healthier things. Good luck, you can totally do it and it feels so good to start seeing results! Remember that you are not alone and that it is okay to slip up sometimes, just remember to do better the next day. I also weigh myself every day because then I can see if I have gained a pound or whatever, then I will be extra careful with what I eat that day. Good luck! You can do it!
ms jane. first of all, I'm sure you are lovely, even if bigger than you'd like to be. secondly, don't be so hard on yourself! you're a busy mama and though you've found yourself in a place you don't want to be, now you've identified it and can move forward. don't dwell on it because hardly anyone is exactly where they want to be I think.
recently I have felt like I'm not taking super great care of my body and I heard through a friend about Quantum Wellness which is a book Oprah read and has talked about on her show apparently. I'm reading it now and it's all about how having a healthy body includes having a healthy mind and spirit too. I like the idea that it's a whole inclusive process...that being aware of what you're eating and why you're eating it is a big part of riding yourself of bad habits and getting healthy. At the end of the book Kathy Freston, the author, suggests a cleanse that is basically a vegan diet for up to three weeks. It's a big deal and looks like a lot of work because you have to put in effort to prepare meals without animal products or gluten, but also sounds like a good idea because of how much you have to think. And she is all about going at a pace that is right for you and just becoming aware. I think that is a big deal...becoming aware. Losing weight just to lose weight doesn't work for me, I need a motivation to get healthy in order to see results and to not yo-yo or get too hard on myself.
I don't know what works for you, but I totally have the book if you want to check it out.
also, Chelsea speaks wisdom!
Oh, and one more thing I do is if I eat something really bad like pizza or have ice cream or whatever, I will just exercise a little longer that day or take an extra walk with the kids and that helps me not feel guilty about eating something bad or get depressed about eating something I shouldn't have.
I think all of us women can relate!! I think that you darling, and I know what a struggle weight will always be for me and my fam. I always see fast results with diet, protien shakes from costco. runing helps too. Sorry you know im a succor for junk food, but I know this helps ALOT!! Good Luck!!
oh my goodness jane, i totally feel your pain! i had this huge goal that after my daughter was born the baby wieght would be gone within 2 months, but here i am a year and a half later and i have lost maybe 6 pounds. my prob is motivation. i try to eat healthy, but i have a hard time getting the motivation to go to the gym. i think sometimes you just have to suck it up and do it. then the more you do it the easier it gets.
but, yes i so feel your pain.
Hey Jane- did you know that we visit teach each other now? Sweeeeet! Oh how I know about not loving the bod. Go easy on yourself, though. You have 2 great kids that your body grew. Pretty amazing! So, let's get together soon and chat!
ok what time of day (early am) can you go for a walk before Chris leaves for work. i just recently found out that by walking at a good pace for an hour will burn MORE FAT then jogging anyway!! good news for those of us that can't physically do the jogging.
but i need help withmy motovation as well. so let's get up at like 6:30am and walk for an hour?!! what do you think!?? call me or email asap!!!!!! love Kens
Jane, I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling like this lately.. I've been in the same boat.. I was alway the skinny tall one of my friends, and NOW.. UGH!! Its so hard to get motivated to eat right and exercise... Every I started to get prego 2yrs ago I gained 50 pounds with all the fertility meds, and trying to get it off is not easy that's for sure.. I love my treats and YES I sit on my fat butt to work so that doesn't help.. I guess my other thing is that we're trying for another baby so I know that doesn't help to get motivated to loose weight either, but I'm totally down in going walking at night or in the mornings so let me know.. I hate myself lately and have been really depressed, but not much time to work on it... Weight Watchers helped me a few years ago and I have books you can borrow so let me know.. Good Luck!! Jane you look good.. You have 2 kids and an awesome husband.. Keep your head up and Smile!!!
Jenny
Jane! I feel for you! Why are we all so hard on ourselves? I loved all the words of wisdom so far, and I would just like to add that my big problem has always been portion size and eating too late. With that said, it can get so frustrating to try to remember everything and it is easy to get overwhelmed, but I also really believe that if you just start with good thoughts (don't be so hard on yourself) and just eat right and exercise, it works.
Good luck!
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